A blog for baby

Let’s face it, mommy is not good at blogging on a regular basis! But I am good at guessing which limb you’re moving across my tummy. You are doing so well, I just cannot believe it! You’ve had reactive non-stress tests since 26 weeks, which is unheard of. You’ve got quite a developed central nervous system and I am so proud of you.

You may notice that I’m not going to work anymore. I’ll be out until after you are born, a long way from now. It’s almost August and that means that I am in the third trimester and you’ll be here in just 2 1/2 months! Something like 86 days away from our due date. It seems so close now. ANd you have to stay in there because your shower isn’t until September. But Dr. R and the perinatalogist both are very impressed and think you’ll stay in until October. I’m starting birthing classes with daddy next weekend too. We’ll work on breathing and taking a tour of labor and delivery at the hospital. I’m excited.

you’ve got an ultrasound in two weeks, so get ready to pose for the camera!

Love mommy

Baby, I’m so proud of you! We saw Dr. S, the perinatalogist last Wednesday, and he said my chorio-amniotic separation looks better! And you weigh 1 lbs 5oz, you little butterball you! You were only 23 weeks at that appointment, and this Wednesday you’ll be 24 weeks. My membranes appear to have re-fused partially near the top of the uterus, which a month ago, the doctors thought would be impossible. It’s truly a miracle from God! Now, Dr. S is still concerned about a cord accident with the membranes that are still floating freely in the sac, so he is recommending to Dr. R (our regular OBGYN) that we go in for non-stress tests 3 times a week, starting when you are 26 weeks. That’s a lot, but much better than being in the hospital for the rest of the pregnancy. I might stay home from work since I’ll be going to the hospital for tests 3 times a week.

It was a good appointment. You couldn’t see Dr. S’s face, but when he was doing the ultrasound, his face just relaxed so much. He had said they were very worried about you, and pessimistic about the outcome, but you are a fighter! When he said the sac looked a lot better, I was so relieved! You’re doing so well, growing big and moving around so much, even during the ultrasound. Daddy and I feel a little less worried about you, and we can’t wait to meet you now. We registered at Babies R Us for all kinds of cool things for you. We picked out your crib, and bedding, your car seat and stroller.

We love you so so much

Dear Baby Boy

It’s the day before our big consultation with Dr. S, the perinatalogist. So far, at the regular obgyn’s office We’ve seen Dr. R and his 2 partners, Dr. Sn and Dr. T. We met Dr. T for the first time yesterday. It’s like having 3 different doctors. Every one of the them has something different to say about you, baby. “The best course might be to admit you to the hosiptal for monitoring.” “No, you’ll probably have an ultrasound every two weeks to monitor baby.” “I recommend that you have a non-stress test twice a week to monitor baby.” OK! You all work at the same practice, you could try to come up with just ONE opinion please? They’re driving me crazy! And we’re seeing Dr.S tomorrow, and what will he say? They all agree, he has the final word. He’d better pick an option where I’m not constantly worring about you! This is crazy, all these opinions. This is the one time I don’t need a second opinion, I need an actual answer.

But, I do feel you moving so much everyday. And Dr. T said your hearbeat sounds great still! I’m worried about tomorrow baby.

I love you

Good morning baby boy! you were up early this morning! I was worried about you yesterday, for no real reason. I worried everytime you stopped moving. I know that’s silly, you can’t be moving every second of the day, but I wish you would.  The closer we get to 24 weeks, the more I worry it seems. Now I worry because I’m scared I won’t recognize when your patterns change and I should call the doctor. When I’m busy at work I don’t notice you moving as much, probably because I’m just not paying attention. But then I worry because I should pay more attention. I think this will be a very stressful summer.

I felt alone among my friends at work. We went to lunch and I was pre-occupied, thinking about you, and wondering if you’ll be ok. I feel alone among most people, like I don’t fit in anymore and they don’t know what we’re going through.

But today, you’re moving around so much! I’m not so worried today. We’re home on the couch, just watching TV and you’ve been rolling and kicking and tickling me.

I love you baby

Dear baby boy,

you’re kicking a lot today, it’s so reassuring; I love it! I see Dr. Sn today, a partner of Dr. R on Tuesday. Still don’t have an appointment with Dr. Smith the perinatalogist yet. They’re supposed to call Monday or Tuesday. I don’t know what’s going on with them, but I’d sure like to get that appointment set up so daddy can take off work too. He’s got to come with us. It’s an important appointment becuase Dr. Smith is supposed to make a recommendation on how to monitor you. Dr. R thinks I should be admitted to the hospital around 25 weeks so you can be on a monitor all day long. Some days I can’t imagine that he’ll recommend that. Everyone is worried about you, but no one seems to have any ideas about what to do to make sure you’ll be safe. The idea is that if I’m admitted, you’ll be monitored all the time to make sure there’s no danger to your umbilical cord. Then if there is danger they’ll deliver you  by emergency c-section. I hope you don’t have to go through that. I want to you stay in there and grow for a while longer, at least 32 weeks. Daddy and I think you’ll go all the way, full term. I’d be glad to stay in the hospital just to make sure  you are ok in there. We worry so much about you baby boy.

Love mommy

Hi baby! Dr. R listened to your heartbeat today, and you were kicking like crazy! I think you were trying to kick the doppler wand on my tummy. Your heartbeat sounds great too. You’re kicking me right now in fact, and I love you so much. I’m seeing Dr. R once a week now, even though I’m not that far along. You’re special and I know you’re a fighter.

I don’t think people really understand what’s going on with you however. I’ve got a complete chorio-amniotic separation and when I try to explain what that means, they get a little lost it seems. Even though daddy and I are worried about loosing you, we’re so happy for everyday we’ve got you, and everyday that you kick and move around. I know you’re a fighter. Daddy says you’re going all the way.

We might be in the hospital next month, so the doctors can keep an eye on you. I won’t know until the beginning of July. It’ll be hard because daddy and I will miss each other so much, we might be there for 2 or 3 months. Daddy promised to visit us as much as he can, and he promised to get your room ready for when we come home. I can’t wait to see you baby boy. I know you’ll be so beautiful.

Love mommy